Almost Empty

It's started. Another one almost gone. Hopes dashed. Not sure if I should be worried or not for the future, but I'll take the Dalai Lama's advice (ala Dawn) and and try to live in the present. It just so happens that the present SUCKS.

I'll be here alone all day. Reading a lot and writing a little. More alone than I was yesterday. So, stop by and drop me a line. Click on my renter. Ask for some code. Look at the shirts. Let me know you are here.

Comments

[Kristen]

Kristen-

I am so very sorry for your loss, and I am horrified (by myself) that I missed some of your recent posts and only just realized what had happened. Here I am rambling on in my comments and then I read this post and think oh my God, how am I so stupid?? Anyway, I can't think of a thing to make you feel better except that you and your daughter are absolutely gorgeous and you've got a wonderful, witty blog...just keep up the good work!!

[Julie]

K, I'm sorry that I have just now gotten here. And I'm so terribly sorry about what you've been going through.

[knq]

Thanks -- I just posted on your blog. Funny. Anyway, I'm feeling better - distracted by fun blog things and other such nonsense. Thank you for the suggestion. I had not thought of that (though have heard of it now that you mentioned it) and will make sure to bring it up.

[the weirdgirl]

Oh honey, I am so sorry. And I'm sorry I haven't been by in the last couple of days. Just take care of yourself.

As well as getting your progesterone checked, also have them check your thyroid. Sometimes it changes during pregnancy and it can lead to miscarriage. (My thyroid went nuts and I have to let my endocrinologist know as soon as I'm pregnant next time.) Try to see a specialist because thyroid problems are often not caught by regular doctors and they're often tied to pregnancy problems.

Take care and know that my thoughts are with you.

[knq]

Thanksccmom... :)

[chichimama]

Hugs. Hang in there. May you find peace and solace eventually, I know it is hard right now.

[knq]

Kristina - thanks for the poem. I appreciate your thoughts Christina and Bridger. Jayne - glad you like the shirts!

Huz came home and I took some ibuprofen. Seems it (and the cramps) knocked me out for a couple hours and I feel better already.

Now for the drinkie...

[Jayne]

Hey there. I'm here. Sending you lots of comfort and peace vibes during this time . . . ps the shirts are awesome!

[Kristina]

When I suffered a pregnancy loss a friend sent this poem to me. I am sending it to you hoping that it will bring you some comfort. from http://hygeia.org

Hope

When roses lose their loveliness
When rivers cease to flow;
When sunlight fails to warm the air,
When stars no longer glow.

When birds cannot take to flight,
When a ruby's luster fades;
When leaves refuse to fall from boughs,
When trees cannot give shade.

When fields of flowers wither,
When clouds cease making rain;
When mountain ranges cast no shadows,
When prairies cannot grow grain.

When these natural wonders end,
When there's no dusk or dawn;
When all life's miracles cease to be....
...Only then will my hope be gone.

Kristina

[Christina]

I'm so terribly sorry. I've never gone through that, but I have several friends who have suffered miscarriages. It sucks all around.

Take care of yourself, and indulge yourself today. Eat, veg out, have a drink or two. Hugs to you.

[Bridgermama]

Your post made me cry. I am sorry. Hang in there and take care of you. Thinkin of ya!

[knq]

Thumb wars while holding beers. Or maybe I should try that damn drinking game HIYA...
Thanks GGC. Word.

And Jess - Thanks for visiting back. I really like your blog - and your post really spoke to me. I'll be back again...

[GIRLS GONE CHILD]

Thinking of you today. I am so sorry. There are no words but if you need anything please let me know. Play with your little one. Thumb war is great for boosting spirits. You have mad peeps in your corner, pretty lady.

Sending you all my love and strength...

xx

[jess]

Dude, it's ok to be sad. Wallow. Eat chips. Take care of yourself.

Thanks for the sympathetic words over on my site.

[sean farley]

No, don't be sad! All will turn out well (it is human and completely natural to feel the way you do, but please be positive!). Your blog is enlightening as it is refreshing (especially for a bitter, 30 year old gay man like myself....THAT'S depressing). Keep it up, write all day if you have to to keep your mind off things for a while.
Hugs,
Sean

[knq]

Thanks guys - Mel, Sarah,TB, Chantal, Jenn... I really appreciate it. And, I'm enjoying some rest here. Laptop, Olympics, Tea...

[JChase]

Lots of love, hugs, and support, and *baby dust* for the future! If you ever want to talk, I'm here to listen.

[TB]

I'm so very sorry. Please take care of yourself today. I'm sending peace and love your way.

[Mama! Mama!]

Kristen:
I am so, so sorry. If you need another shoulder, please email me. I have been there. It sucks. Take care of yourself.

mel

[Sarah]

I am so sorry. Having lost one of my own I know what kind of pain you are in.

[Chantal]

Hugs and prayers. It's just not fair. I know. I had three miscarriages between our 2nd and 3rd. It was a rough, miserable time.

Here any time,

[knq]

Okay no more pimping. And thanks for being there, dear renter. It gets my mind off me -and I as you might have figured out, I have a hard time allowing people to caretake or offer help, but at the same time, I really do want it.

[reluctant housewife]

I'm so sorry!

I'm here as well, and I've been too chicken to post. I've been thinking about you a lot, and I think you are very courageous to share what you are going through with us.

I'm praying for you.

RH

PS - would you stop pimping my blog? You've sent me enough traffic already! YOU ARE AN AWESOME LANDLORD - so forget about me and take care of yourself!

[knq]

Thanks folks... I really appreciate the thoughts. Fidget, you have email...

[jodes]

hey girl!!! Have a good weekend.

[J's Mommy]

So sorry to hear what you're going through. I wish I had more words of encouragement, but the only thing that really helps is time. YOu've got a lot of mommies out there sending prayers your way!

[Dawn]

I am sorry K - I assume that even the Dalai Lama gets sad. That's OK too, you know.

[Chag]

So sorry to hear what happened. My thoughts are with you.

[fidget]

i am sorry, i know how much it hurts.

You should get your progesterone levels tested. After multiple miscarraiges I finally found a doctor who would perscribe progesterone suppliments the second i find out i'm preggo. I've since had 2 sucessful pregnancies. Some people naturally have a defiency and other develope one. It's just a simple little pill you take 1 time a day until about 12 weeks, it makes miracles happen sometimes.

If you want to talk please email me, i'm pretty good at listening. You are in my prayers

[Mom101]

Oh fuck. That's all there is to say. Hang in there.

[MetroDad]

My thoughts and prayers are with you as well. I'm so sorry.

[knq]

Thanks ladies. You have email. Nixie - I love your place. Come back anytime. Mrs. Fortune - You got a nice place too. Glad you came out of lurkerdom :) and Nancy, thank you again!

I'll be reading all day to pass the time (of course, I read all day everyday, but today I have a really good excuse!)...

[Nancy]

Kristen, I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I will be around all day if you need anything -- just drop me a line.

[mrsfortune]

Hi, can I have some code? I looked at the shirts. I am here.

I'm truly, truly sorry about what you're going through. Usually I just lurk here, on and off (sorry!) ... but here is a place for support:

http://www.justmommies.com/boards/index.php?act=SF&s=495591424a291df1852a373bd9b09e50&f=23

[Nixie Knox]

Thanks for stopping by my place.
My heart is with you today. Keep giving that beautiful girl of yours hugs and kisses - you know that is the most powerful healing there is.